21|AL|booo
it’s close to 4am now. did a bit of my assignment and now i can’t sleep. i was just thinking, how could one have feelings for another and then suddenly decides to try to forget the feelings? i mean hey, you gave me so much of hope, made me so happy, made me feel special. then i was crushed into pieces just like that. just like that. your words, your actions, lead me on. how could you do this to someone whom is true to you. you said it would be better if we were friends. i get that but do you have to say that a million times? it’s hard to stay as normal friends and pretend we didn’t had feelings for each other. i had to put on a false front whenever you text me or whatever. i don’t like this feeling cos i hate pretending. i’m crying again, thinking back how sweet you were to me. you found me, chose to be close with me and then you chose to let go of something special we shared. it’s all you. have you ever thought about how i felt? apparently not. you have no idea how much i’ve gone through this year. sometimes, i’m just tired of crying.
